Thursday, July 15, 2010

Recap of the past few months

Yoohoo! Im back! And back at work! Things have been working out really good for me and God's been kind. He's given me a good career change where I can take Chutku to work with me and leave him in the day care.
The past few months have been such a frenzy of activities - with us moving to our own home, changing jobs, learning to take care of Chutku and managing the house all alone.

Now that Im back at work, there is a consistent guilt of not having completed a lot of tasks. Guess its always a see-saw with prioritising. I enjoy coming out to work,meeting people and generally feel more happy. On the flip side its really depressing to see that I havent yet personalised our home with even a single picture of us or its not as clean as I want it to be. Or I get worried and guilty when Chutku has a bad cold and he doesnt sleep at night - Is it because Im not spending much time with him? Am I not giving enough time and proper care to him? And now that he's 6months and we still havent got the toys that he's 'supposed' to have by now - Are we not giving him the mental stimulation he requires for his growth? But at the end of the day - he seems happy and relaxed and there is no problem with his eating and sleeping habits - I guess that should be enough for now.

And last but not the least - Have absolutely no time for personal grooming! I sometimes wonder where is the person I once knew when I look into the mirror! :-(
I would love to party/go out more often - Havent even bought books since there is no time to read(or I would have to steal minutes from precious sleeptime)! But then I would have to leave Chutku with G'parents which means even over weekends we will not be spending much time with him - So we end up not going out anywhere at all! So its a see-saw - To go /Not to go, To stay/Not to stay. Hope things improve once he begins to eat our food and able to express himself better...
An uncle said - Its going to be sleepless nights for you for the rest of your life - Its never going to end - looks like we are getting there slowly!

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